What’s a trial?

This has been the hardest and most rewarding year of my life. If you’ve known me for a significant period, you know that’s saying something.

As I enter this post I want to be clear. The information I am divulging is simply to communicate how good God really is.

In the last week my family has lost their primary source of income, health insurance deductible (because of income loss), and multiple family friends have passed away. In the last month, we’ve almost had our car towed and rental taken away, both as result of an error, multiple doctors visits, and unexpected car bills.

This has unequivocally been the worst month of our lives.


But I say that as just the scrape to the knee. Because it’s so temporary.

For the first time in eight years we have had opportunities to serve that I thought might never come around again. Life changes and spirit changes I had begged God for in the financially good times. Remembering now, that I would trade everything to have those changes happen.

No… This post isn’t for sympathy, money, or a vent.

this post is to testify to the amazing and life changing power of Jesus.

In this month I have seen lives change.
I’ve seen walls around hardened hearts shatter.
I’ve seen my family laugh and spend time together.
I’ve seen my husband serving.
I’ve seen our community band around us and behind us just being present.

All opportunities I may not have taken if the situation was different.

As I’ve seen the dollars dwindle to dust and waking this morning aware of exactly what bills might not get paid… I asked myself: “am I leaving behind a legacy of love and service and the power of Jesus to my kids? …Or just a debt.


Out of all the things I cannot control, I can allow my life living purpose of reflecting Jesus’ person and character out in everything.

I can allow His love to humble me to serve and watch Him abundantly bless those around me.

I can’t miss the point in all this.

I can’t miss Jesus.

Job 19:25 “But as for me, I know that my Redeemer lives, and he will stand upon the earth at last.”